I'm grappling with similar things... I don't think of the Universe as punishing, but I do believe it is my 'fault' that I missed the opportunity (if there was one) to fulfil my potential. I'm unhappy with being dissatisfied with what life has given me and what I've co-created with the Universe. I don't know what will give me satisfaction and fulfilment, other than my projects being successful, and that hasn't eventuated and I'm not sure I want to keep trying. It's almost crazy to say that perhaps I'm not in flow because I'm doing good work. But I haven't made the impact I thought I would.
I honour you for your honesty in sharing this Raquel. You write what feels satisfying for you is your projects being successful. This is a good place to sink into and explore. Your life in part is one of trial and error, meaning you will have some success some failure and gaining wisdom through this. I have this also and it’s not always easy especially when emotions get involved. Ride the emotional waves when disappointment and frustration arise. It sounds pat, yet you can keep honouring yourself for what you have co-created. 🧡
I'm grappling with similar things... I don't think of the Universe as punishing, but I do believe it is my 'fault' that I missed the opportunity (if there was one) to fulfil my potential. I'm unhappy with being dissatisfied with what life has given me and what I've co-created with the Universe. I don't know what will give me satisfaction and fulfilment, other than my projects being successful, and that hasn't eventuated and I'm not sure I want to keep trying. It's almost crazy to say that perhaps I'm not in flow because I'm doing good work. But I haven't made the impact I thought I would.
I honour you for your honesty in sharing this Raquel. You write what feels satisfying for you is your projects being successful. This is a good place to sink into and explore. Your life in part is one of trial and error, meaning you will have some success some failure and gaining wisdom through this. I have this also and it’s not always easy especially when emotions get involved. Ride the emotional waves when disappointment and frustration arise. It sounds pat, yet you can keep honouring yourself for what you have co-created. 🧡